Lessons From The Wrong Side

   "Never Let Failure Get To Your Heart" 

As the year is in it’s last count so I decided to wrap it up by reviewing it thoroughly in order to make some space before New Year to think what to include and what not in the list of promises. As I was rolling through the memories I found me exciting, celebrating, breaking, crying, then reuniting, launching and becoming the best version of myself. Well, rolling along these memories and emotions I found some lessons worth sharing with you out of the huge stuff. So this blog is all about me and the lessons I learned through the events that took place throughout the year. So as always take a long breathe and be ready to be with me in that journey.

1. Even Failure Has A Value- I started the year with a great hope and opportunity in hand. Well I had cleared the the NDA exam for the second time and the hope and the opportunity that I am talking you is the hope of clearing the SSB this time and to make a way for my dreamed job as an officer in Indian Armed Force. This time I had prepared a lot for the SSB and somewhere in my heart a confidence voice was saying me that this time you are surely going to crack it. I had a mixed feeling of excitement and fear when at last the day arrived. On 29^th of January I reported at 2AFSB Mysore at 5:30 AM. The day was cloudy but it feel good. And the Screening procedure had started after the allotment of chest numbers to all of us; my chest number was 87 (although I am not damn sure). At about 11:30 the screening procedures had ended and I was damn sure of my selection for the second phase of SSB. We were aligned in ground for result announcement and with that my heart started pumping the blood with a higher rate than before. The call had started in ascending order with chest no.1 then 2, 3, 4…The call slowly reached to 50 and I started preparing to shout my DOB and Father’s Name on my chest call and the heart started pumping at more pace than before. The Call reached to 85 and my heart was about to came out through my mouth. Then the officer called 86 then 89 and what he called after that I hardly noticed or listened. Everything seems to came at a still and the grass in front of me appeared floating, my head was sinking down as someone had pushed it down forcefully. Somehow I hide my tears and busied me for the return journey. I was feeling light after meeting all other candidates who were like me means they too were screened out. The return journey was confirmed in the Rajdhani Express. I boarded the train at 8:00 pm and headed for the longest journey of my life. I hardly talk to anyone instead of Mummyji and Papaji and thanks to Bhai who booked the ticket for the journey. So I was there in train and in the night I tried to sleep but whenever I tried to close my eyes the rejection incident flipped in front of me so I decided to not close it. The night seemed endless I tried again and again to sleep because I had slept only for 5-6 hours in two days. Every minute I was flipping the mobile on and off to see the time and with that I tried to sleep every time but nothing helped me. At around 4:00 am I slept and at around 8:30 someone was pushing my leg a man is offering me the morning food. At around 1:00 I opened my phone and saw the heap of missed calls. I was just going through them when the phone rang Mummy was calling me. I received the phone and Mummy asked me if I was fine I just replied by saying hoon everytime because my throat was filled with something which was ready to come out through my eyes although mummy somehow had noticed it. She asked what happened but I was speechless when again she asked me I tried to speak but only tears come in reply. I somehow said  that proper signal was not coming in the train so I would call her later. After that the tears burst without any ending thank god I had the side upper berth and nobody saw me. So tears were bursting out endlessly and for the first time I came to realize that the tears have their own law. Thank god I feel really very good after all that and the rest of the journey went better. You might be thinking of why I am telling you all these things because neither it is a thing to be proud on nor it is a thing to be cried like I did. Wait a minute because this is not the end of the story.

 So the time passed rapidly and I passed the NDA exam again and you know what, nothing had changed. The SSB center again was at the Mysore, the result again was the same means I was screened out, the return train again was the Rajdhani Express. However  my reaction was exactly the opposite of the previous one. Instead of crying I was laughing, I enjoyed the train journey the most in my life; this time I called to everyone and told my result. I read a whole new book in the journey and I prepared me for the Meditation experiment. 
 You can simply say my reaction as the evolution but that much difference is hard to shallow. Actually I cried because I didn’t know the other way to react in that situation. I sometime think of all these things and try to find the answer of why I cried because this was a little thing to be cried on. But I am happy now that I understood this thing that it is not mandatory that the thing that we want will always achieved by us and like wins looses too are a part of our lives that’s why now I am bold enough to handle even worse situation than that. This failure had taught me many valuable lessons and out of all the major one is- “Accepting yourself a failure and not the failing is a sin”. This is the very first thing I learned from the wrong side.

2. You Will Not learn until you launch- so are you ready? No I think I need more preparation. I think this is not the right time to start. I think I will fail if I will start now. I think I need to wait for a good time to come. I think I do not have the time. Meet my past self, yes this was me always  afraid of starting a new thing. But as the year rolled on I found me get out of that situation however not completely. How? For the answer follow me. There is always something special you want to do in your life like to dance, to sing,to write, to drive, to play a guitar or a piano, to be an actor etc. The choice vary with people but this is certain that there is always something special you want to do in your life. I too have a long list but I was always afraid of starting a new thing. For example I had a strong urge to go beyond my syllabus and read something special but I never started because of lack of time which was there in huge amount. Well this year around march I somehow decided to read a book. I read the first page and after that my mind said me why you stopped and I continue to read the book until at last it ended in 7 days. Although I understood little of the book but still the felling was good enough for me to continue in my quest of more reading. Now I had successfully read 35 books. Same had happened with me when it comes to start to write a blog. I thought that I am not a good writer although I wrote my very first blog  however very bad and  had not showed it to anyone but as time rolled on I learned the way to write effectively. Isn’t this blog better than the previous ones? I decided to do the meditation experiment although I little know of it but still I did it and things had improved after starting. There are many other things I had started this year on some I quit and on some other I progressed. But every time I started whether to read a book or to write a blog the start was not that good and most of the time this was a near failing start although I learned after the start and now things look way better than before. But think if I had never started those things, you probably aren’t reading this blog. This all happened because I started doing these things or in other words I launched me in these things. So launching at all is most important, that’s why I said that you will not learn until you launch. So this is the second lesson from the wrong side. So just start bro and then see how things will improve magically.

3. Last words- when I am thinking all about this year I have a short but deep smile on my face and even a deeper happiness in my heart. This year is really memorable to me. Everything is a part of the process and really a part of the unique process that we cannot understand now. Saying that this thing has changed my life and that blurred my liveliness may be wrong. Everything that has happened even wrong has a message and something to learn. In my case I lost my phone, I failed even in my last chance of SSB (before graduation) and many things like these had happened throughout the year. Although all these things is from my wrong side but they have lessons that can lead me to the right side and that’s the reason why I discussed the whole topic under this title “Lessons From The Wrong Side”. I hope you have learned something from this blog. Now let Mentor Yogi to go with a promise to meet you in the New Year. So that’s all bye bye and I will meet you on some another day with another idea to share until then be happy and let you allow to explore your wrong side too.

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