Mentor Yogi

Note - This blog is a snippet from my daily journals. Well, allow me to start from where I had ended last day – “Accept the Truth”; and the truth is that - I am terribly falling apart from my daily goals. Nothing new is happening, this is like - life has come to a halt. I am living in a world of imagination, completely unaware of my misery and the truth of my defeats, but as I switch to reality - a feeling of extreme guilt, sorrow and anger take over my head. This feeling is further intensifying my pathetic state making me feel even more miserable, eventually resulted in providing me a reason to switch back from reality to the world of imagination again. This is like the case with SCR: we can turn it ON with a gate voltage but to turn it off we have to apply a reverse blocking voltage otherwise it will continue to conduct no matter how much gate voltage you apply to it. Man, am I writing this here, Why. This is all because of this disgusting feeling of guilt. I am feeling the same ag...

Beauty sometimes  deceives us. How? Keep reading  for the answer - Sometimes I overdo some things that they went far beyond calling normal. I didn’t know a single day in the last 20 or 30 days where I hadn’t promised me to walk to what seems to be the right way inspite of to what seems to be the beautiful but dangerous. But see, I ended up being a man with disastrous mistakes which I swears not to do again and again everyday but I do them far beyond the state it will be called as a sensible human act. I haven’t even looked at what seems to be the right path and I hardly remembers the day when I walk on it last and now because of my mistakes I am on the second path, the path which has beauty but danger as well. Someone is diverting and taking me away although it pretends to be me; but it is  not exactly me but other one of me. Now, I am on a path which have both beauties and dangers. Beauty is over my head and attracting me so strongly that even the dangers lying down ar...

कभी सोचा है की हम कल की बात आज ही क्यों करते है।   मतलब हम कल की बात कल और आज की बात आज भी तो कर सकते है।   यह थोड़ा अजीब विषय   है और थोड़ा जटिल भी   इसलिए हम इसे   यही छोड़   देते है   और आज   मतलब अब   कल की बात करते है।   तो   कल , नही यह परसो की बात हैं जब करीब दसवीं बार मम्मीजी के कहने पर आखिरकार मैंने अपनी   मेज को साफ करने की ठानी। कल की बात तो यह हैं की मैंने उसे साफ़ , उसे मतलब अपनी मेज को साफ़ किया। बरामद हुई चीजों में बारह बुक , छह कॉपी , एक चम्मच और पॉच पैन थे , जिन्हें मैं बिल्कुल नहीं मानता कि मैंने   ही कभी उन्हें वहां रखा था। लेकिन यहां एक कॉपी है जो दिखने में कॉपी ज़रूर लग रहीं थीं पर शायद यह नहीं थी। हाँ , यह एक किताब थी। " क्षितिज ", नाम तो जाना पहचाना सा लगा और इसका कवर भी। ओह हाँ यह तो कक्षा नौ की किताब है और फिर यादों की बेड़ियां खुलनी शुरू हो गई। अम...